I'm just not so sure about this school thing. Nothing like what I was expecting, it drains me quite a lot. I'm not sure what to do really. I know myself, and I'm not a quitter, but I don't want this to take a hold of me. Been talking to some people that are close to me, but it's the usual "You can make it, just put a little effort! It will be worth it!" or "Well, take a break then and get back on that horse later". Been thinking about this break thing, could that be the way? But in this economy, how easy is it to find a job? And how weak would I be if I needed a break after only a year has passed? There is just so much I want to do, stuff I can't really do if I'm stuck at school, pushing myself to the border. I remember how 12th grade ended, I was burned out, trying to escape anything that demanded effort, it ruined me. I just feel lost sometimes, broke and broken.
Is this something I want? Is there a nurse in me? I was so quick on jumping aboard I think I forgot to feel what I wanted.
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